A busy week

This is a week where I really feel that I am a normal working people....

Its really busy for me. Last few weeks I still have the time to complete my log book and session report in the office, then i can read reference book and do some admin work like translation.

However, this week, I even not free to write the filing report for the session. I got average 2-3 session each day. Some of them are new cases. I face challenging case like client with PTSD and child abuse experience and client who is dumb. I feel a bit stress coz i am worry that i cant give necessary help for my clients. However, it is a good opportunity for me to learn more on handling different cases.

I go alone to Pacific in Butterworth on tuesday holiday. The only purpose I am there is heading to the bookstore there. I find 4 bookstore there, and sure I got some books that I want. Surprisingly, I get a dream bible, which show thousands analysis of dreams. haha... so, if anyone of you having a dream and you dont know what it wants to tell you, let me know, and i will help you find out is there any explanation for you dream!

Something happen this week and it may be or may not bring big effect to my practical evaluation. I am not so worry about that coz it is not my deeds. However, I am not sure if i will get involve in the event or not. I am not going to mention it here. After all, I wish it can go back to tranquil asap and I can pass the following two months time safely.

I am satisfy with the progression now. And until now, I still feel that, this is the best choice I have made, in coming to practice in Penang General Hospital!

11-1-11

This is a beautiful date, and I am waiting for another one 11-11-11... haha...

If I am in 2nd, if I got crazy kaki with me....

I will buy 1 (sure cant be 11) champagne (fruit drink), wait 11:11am, open it!! haha... Then we will chit chat there till DU open, tuesday, best chicken day...

That is a dream, only granted when I am sleeping...

Nothing, I just wish to write something on this special date... I dont wish to recall all the time in 2nd, coz this will make me miss all of you soooooooooo much... You are always in my mind, and in my photo collection^^

Time passing, human growing, experience is accumulating;
Things changing, world turning, life is worth-ing!

My dear brother kokhoe just tell me a great and crazy plan... spend few months in NZ Aurkland, working and earning money, then use the money to go around NZ... What a good and interesting idea... Will my dad kills me if i do so? haha... Think think...

My dear AngCheng just call me and have a long talk... haha... I know what you are doing now, and u know mine... Is the time of sharing!!

Love you all always!! Pray that my dear God love you all too!!

SUKMUM tennis

wahaha... Tennis game end dy!!

Without much prepare and practice, our secholian tennis team just enter the court and come out with good result!! We got 2nd place again -- 3rd year continuously lar!! Congratulation!!

Kinwei, Weysian, Kaisiang, Cheeling & Soonyee; Seeling, Mery & Shanshan. Top form lar!! haha... Unexpectedly win 6th in first match, 10th walk over in 2nd match, semifinal meet 5th, then final lose to 12th, as expected!! 12th got many MAKSUM, and SUKMA player, we cant fight them... But, we are good enough dy!!

Where am I in this game?? haha... I am the major supporter, and most important camera lady!! They happy playing game, I happy taking photo!! My album collection add more photo dy lar!! Check it out in my fb ba.. Its funny and interesting!!

Next game coming soon!! Wait~~

Loneliness

Loneliness does not mean to be alone. Alone,is not necessarily lonely.

Loneliness, is when you feel you need somebody to be with you, but that person does not exist.

Loneliness, is when there are many people around you, but just nobody can touch your heart.

Loneliness, is when there are nobody you can fully trust enough to talk about your private things.

Loneliness, is when you are crying, there is no a shoulder for you.

Loneliness, is when you want to act crazy, but nobody act with you.

Loneliness, is when you want to take nice photo, but just nobody around can help you.

Loneliness, is when she leave, leaving lots of sweet memory for you.

Loneliness, is when you think you are lonely.

Loneliness, touch my life, giving me chance to know about it, get rid of it, and help others to get rid of it.

Loneliness, my research topic!!

1st dean in my 3 years uni life...

1st time deanlisted... but still 0.1 from where i can drag my pngk to deanlist... I want to have free PTPTN... Have to put more efford le...

Get B for my latihan amali... haiz... means i still far behind the professional practical... I know I am not doing well... Even not doing the very basic thing of intake interview... hmm... have to read more case book le... UPGRADE myself...

One more year to go... Try my best lar...^^

Life

Why some people always complain about their life? Why some people always live in depress? Why let others behavior and attitude affect you? Why keep on looking for others acceptance and attention?

I admit that others' reflection towards us is very important, even to me. However, it just in terms to tell us who we are, and show that we are somebody. I can't deny, although I know this, I always can't get rid of it. I am so care on how others treat me. It always make me down...

Let's think this way. Our life in this world is only 70 or 80 years. However, there is an eternal life after the death of this human body. Why let the unhappiness control your mind? Why keep on thinking of the unproductive stuff?? Your life as human being is too short for you to spend on these emo stuff. You have much more important things to do within your life. FIND OUT THE TRUTH OF LIFE!! If you can't find the truth of life in this short life, you will have an eternal life to be regret of it. Trust me. You worth it. May God gives us wisdom to find out the truth.

Finally, my 3rd year comes to an end..

Walamak... This is the first time I got so long exam, 12 April till 7 May (today)... sweat... I have 10 days to prepare for the last paper wo... Fortunately, its not a tough paper, thanks Dr. Khosrow...

This study and exam week have chance to go Penang Island, Parit Bundar, Klang, I-City (just consider pass-by), Seoul Garden, and Look Out Point. Fun, Enjoy!!!

Totally no mood to prepare for this exam. Not sure it is because this semester really not so challenging or it is just my laziness. I think both are the reason lar... Anywhere, its over dy...

Happy, finally no need struggle with my laziness dy lar... I will go on trip!! Cherating & Teluk Chempedak, I AM COMING!!!

^^

This world is always unfair. However, I believe that the Mighty God always has His best plan on His people~!!

这个世界是不公平的。但，我相信上帝永远有最好的计划在你我身上！！

3rd time promoter...

Work as promoter again last 2 days... Midvalley jusco, Wise promoter.

I am not urgently need money, but the supervisor find me, so I think, work lar, as I am not busy with anything.

The first day I work, I already think of quit, faster finish lar... Its tiring for standing whole day... I keep wondering why I want to promise her, just because the little salary?? Not regretting, but just keep telling myself, this is the last time lol...

Its not a hard job, just I don't know why I can't stand and tahan whole day like last time. Tiring and cold. Oop... Its just an easy job for me... I no need push sale as well...

I am a stupid promoter actually... I will keep standing there, don't dare to move around like others, scared being caught by the guard... haha... So, it make me tired standing. Fortunately there is another shelf to keep my product, so I can move there when I feel really cold standing at the promotion area. I can go to store as well.

Fine, next week somebody will replace me lol, coz I want to prepare for my first paper. Thanks cloud. This job, give me a chance to compare between work and study.. haha... Work is tiring, and no freedom. Study is so flexible... Oop.. I like the study life. Half more year left for me as a student lol... Must appreciate every moment!!

+ hope... -hope...

Dont give me a hope, and then grab the hope from me after that... Its painful...

A lesson for me, and also remind me of that...

Daxiang 2

First time I feel really bad to wake up in the morning. Thinking that I still have to go on alone, I really feel sad. I think of nobody to help me, thinking that can I let go everything today, thinking of escape. I even think that if I die accidently at that moment, will everything able to continue? That was my first time having that feel. Usually when I wake up from a night's sleep, I will be fine. But not for that few days. I wondering am I slightly in depression already?? Anywhere, that is few days ago already.

Thanks for the OH card workshop by Ms. Nicole on Thursday. We are having group counseling session by using OH card. I am so shock when I get a card, with the right hand chopping down the left hand with a hammer. Its painful... I discovered that I am hurting myself by what I do. I am cutting myself by my negative thinkings, and cannot let go like a child's attitude. The second card, with a hand writting on a paper and with blank word. I dont understand, so I get another combination of card. The 3rd one is a green signal traffic light with a GO word, and the word suppress. I know I need to move on, but suppress......??

Thanks Ms. Nicole. She told me that I really need to learn how to ask for help. She said "Ask for help is OK!!" I do really need to learn about that. Yup. It need time, but I wish that I can do it..

Avatar

Yesterday (5 Jan) go midvalley movie with Rani and KitYen. Class cancelled on that afternoon, so just go for Avatar without much think, since we have mentioned it last week.

We watch 3D version, RM18, for me is quite expensive. I dont want to say it worth. It just extremely excellent, especially the scene. The movie has some attractive points for me.

1. The scene is really really extremely nice and amazing. The floating land, the gigantic tree, the glowing plants, the funny sensitive plant, the willow glowing tree (holy tree to them). I wonder whether it is a heaven. However, I know God will prepare one that is better than that, so nice that we can never imagine of it.

2. The flow of the story. It is the first time I watch a movie, which describe human as the bad character while alien is so innocent. It describe human's greediness and cruelness. Human does not even talk with the alien, and just start to destroy their home and kill their people, just for the sky-high price mineral from alien's world. 想想有点像人类对待这个地球，为了自己的需要，无限制的砍伐树林，破坏动植物的家。也是没问过动物（是不能问啦），就破坏它们的家，杀害他们。











3. The moment when Neytiri cries for her father's dead, I can even feel her pain. Also when she sees her people die in the war, the pain cant be explained by words. It is cruel, traumatic, a war, uncountable wound.

It is a happy ending. It is really a nice movie. But I wont consider watch it for 2nd time lar... Nice memory, once is enough, unique. 2nd time watch will have different feeling, cant promise better. Never regret for watching it!!

My whole sem 5 holiday^^

Having a holiday totally belong to myself for the first time^^

Exam till 16 November, then start planning for daxiang camp. Having a relax time in the camp, broga hill climbing, and have fun before separate.

Have a weeks time alone in my sister house. Cook for myself, watching series all days, doing nothing except resting and personal daily life.

3 December, come back college for UMIT XIV main event. Being a X-Umitian, taking part as audience, having fun by watching matches and a lot of freedom.

Start promoter job Funduelah at 7 Dec, then 8, 9, 11, 12, 13, 18, total 7 days. A new job for me, gaining new experiences, feelings, perception and skills. Having fun with the attitude of some customers too.

Go back to wangsamaju again, living alone again. This time watching japan series and out dated movies as well.

In between, got chance to go many shopping malls to view the christmas decoration, and buy some clothes as well. Time Square, Sungai Wang, Pavillion, Midvalley, the Garden, One Utama, Amcorp mall, the Curve, Ikea, Tesco mutiara, Tropicana, KLCC, Sunway. Some of the places go by using moto, and some is my first go.

A day to UPM, for international softball match, with UM softball team, with Cheng.

Satisfy with the download of all Jay and JJ songs.

Very Red concert on NTV7.

Is a special holiday for me. Although not going for trip, not having luxurious life, not being with many friends. Thank God to give me this, and thank God for the safeness and smoothness of the holiday.

I ride moto to UPM O>O

I think got van to UPM to watch the international softball match, but finally got some problem, so no van. Cheng find Ah Yee to help, and I need to drive moto there...

Not bad lar... At least I got another driving moto experience lol... I still not sure how to go there, and also most probably wont go there again lar...











This is the event... Chinese Taipei and Japan players...











the result... Winner team -- Japan...











UPM field and its 2nd college... wahaha...

UPM is really bigger than UM ler... haha...

Good lar I dint get lost when coming back.. Thank God!!

Gifts~~99

Hello hai... Welcome to my 99th blog... Let it be long long 99... haha

What am I thinking now??

Ok, since I wake up this morning, I am thinking of it ~~ GIFTS. Oww... wondering how long I dint receive a gift dy... Who wanna give me a present? A Christmas present?? Hey, I am truly truly wish to get a gift from anyone, even its just a very cheap thing, just in case it is wrapped with gift wrappers... I really mean it...^^













Which one is mine??











Just a simple one like this...










Can make me happy like this...















Anywhere, I have got a best one...











Have u get it?




















Wish u have it already^^

If u havent get it, wish to share with u, the best gift for ur 2009 x'mas!!

dearest coursemate^^

That day ( its a tuesday), you ask me "Hai gal, How are you?"

I answer, "Fine. Y?"

You say, "Just asking girl. Missing you!"

I reply, "Thank you......"

Feeling just usual, and warm that somebody care about me.

Today you tell me, you have a dream that day, dreaming that I am not feeling well.

So you message me, just want to know I am fine.

Feeling touch, that you so care about me.

Its so nice to know you, and close to you since last semester, this year, 2009.

Neverever, I feel any of my classmate or coursemate care so much about me.

Thank God for sending you to me.

Thank you for your sharings, and friendship, sincerity.

I appreciate it, Lakshumy! Love you^^

happy presentation

Today is the first day of study week, but still having class, due to unfinished group presentation for action research.

Truly say, this is really last minutes work, which I never like that till now. Before this, we didnt have any idea on what we want to do. So we just leave it there, keep discuss discuss but do nothing. We only start to do something, and the main things 2 weeks ago, in the middle of October. The 3 interview, 4 observation, all done within 2 weeks. Then all the stories and analysis done within 3 days. Presentation slides done within 2 days. What I can say? Last minutes only can stimulate the intellectual and afford. Although I dont like it, but it is the trend. I cant change others, but I can make sure that for individual work, I dont do the last minutes work! Now the lampiran and presentation all done already, wait print out later. The main report on the way, 80/90% already.

The presentation this morning, we are the first group. Bravo Investigators. I know got benefit for the first group usually. We got extra time to present our overall information, because time keeper is not effective at that time. Thank God, we make it. Lecturer like our story-telling presentation, it show complete flow on what we have done on our research. Satisfied with it. Feel the team work.

Really touched by the way presented by another group, Fabulous. They are some creative and famous and my favourite coursemates in counseling course. They do the topic of disabled person and how to help them. They presented it by a poem to discribe how a disabled person feels and needs. Then, its like a fashion show to introduce all the members. They not concern on what they have done in their research, but concern on what we can do for them. Its a successful presentation, and lecturer also like that very much. Its Kelly's style, creative and elegant.

Another information get from all the presentation, haha... Rupa-rupanya not paying attention in class also consider as ponteng. So, stop dreaming in the class lar.

What can we do for them?

What can we do for the beggars on the street?
What can we do for the old folks who ask for money at the food junction?
What can we do for the disabled person?
What can we do for the sicks?
What can we do for those who are sad?
What can we do for those who are in need?
What can we do for those who never hear of gospel?

Today at SS2 food junction, an old woman ask for money from one table to another. I ignore her, not look at her face, and also not give money. After she moved away, I just look at her, moving from one table to another, ask for money, until I cant see her anymore.

I ask myself, why dont I give her money? For me, asking money like that needs a lot of courage. Am I give her money because she is brave? Am I give her money because she looked so pity and in need? Why am I spending so many money on nonsense things but not for a human's need? Should I give money to those pity person before I am able to earn my own money? I think so much everytime I see those who ask for money on the street, in the restaurant... However, I seldom give.

Can I , Should I ask:... Why are you here? Where are you live? Where is your family? Why you want to come out and ask for money? How old are you? What do our country do for them?

I remember that last time pastor tell us that he choose to give the money to those people, as maybe they are cheating, but maybe some of them really in need. But will they take for granted and continually do that instead of doing something more meaningful? Sure, we cant foresee that. So how? What will you do?

Last time Zau also share that he meet a beggar in the pasar malam, and he pray for that beggar instead of giving him money. He felt that God wants him to do so.

What God wants you and me do? Will God be the one who beg and want to test us? I dont know. However, here, I want to promise to myself, next time, if I am afford, I will give. Maybe they will become demand, maybe they will take for granted, maybe... maybe.... But, I do what I can do already. That is my part.

Maybe, in the future, as a counselor, I can do more for them. I hope so...

Get a stomach of FIRE and BITTER WATER from UM HEP

This morning getting PBCUM teacher adviser's signature and approval for my Malam Persembahan Seni Pertuturan Cina KKD. Then go HEP, wait for 1/2 hour, meet the staff in charge, get many correction for my KKD. Its the first round I pass up my KKD, so its expected already lar. Just need to reedit it.

Then this afternoon, go there again. 2:45pm wait till nearly 4pm. As KKD has been check in the morning, and I say I have edited it, so the staff in charge ask me to key-in the data to the pentadbiran system first.

Dont know the username, password and database, ask staff A. Staff A say I am not in charge of persatuan, u go ask staff in charge. She is not there, so searching for our busy secretary. Fortunately got KaiWei accompany me for a while. Then, finally get the password from secretary, but still can not access.

Go ask the staff in charge, she ask me ask staff N. Staff N say, go ask the staff in charge. I say, she ask me come to you. So, she slowly help me check out the problem, and complaining somemore... The password expired dy, got new one... Please lar... How I know?

Then proceed with the new one. Fine, enter dy. KaiWei go back first lol. However, after fill in few details, I hang again... Dont know how to proceed to the next raw of key-in information. Bad, try many times still fail... Then go to staff N again. She says, I have help you with the password, you should go to find the staff in charge.

So I go back, find the staff in charge. She says staff N is more pro in the database. Nevermind lar, you come and key-in again on Monday. (Is over 5pm dy, they want to go back dy...)

Please lar... all from the same office. Then student got problem, why not every staff can help? I only say I cannot key-in the data, can anyone of you help? Why cant you help? I dont trust that none of you know how to do it accept the staff in charge of PBCUM. Is just key-in, nothing related with my KKD!!!

Remember last time I help UMIT14 key-in the data. The staff in charge of college activities is very nice. She concerned on me, and help me whenever I hang there. However, when comes to persatuan things, the other staff just want to reject whatever none of their business.

What kind of HEP like this?

Why UM HEP staff so unfriendly de?? We are all human, we are same level, what u all prioritised?

Lesson from here, Dont be anyone like that after you go to the world of work. Dont be the one u used to hate!!

busy busy and busy, before i notice it...

stress... suddently many works occur... tense...

My Magazine, havent settle the article yet, hopefully can settle tonight.

Action research literature review, settling soon.

Many books havent study...

Daxiang planning, half way on finding the adhoc...

church camp, coming soon...

Individual session, havent settle...

Group session, last one or maybe last second...

Minggu Kemerdekaan, really guilty of not giving commitment... REALLY GUILTY... Sorry Suresh... I am considering want to join KKAA or not...

I AM WONDERING WHY I SLEEP SO MUCH STILL FEEL TIRED NOWADAYS. I GUESS IS BECAUSE I AM ESCAPING FROM MK, AN ACTIVITY THAT I REALLY CANT FEEL ANY SENSE OF INVOLVING. THEN, STRESS MAYBE ALSO ONE OF THE REASON. ITS MY WAY TO ESCAPE FROM REALITY... OMG... I AM SO WEAK...

Dont want break anymore, it will make me lazy... I should wake up... I should aware of what I am doing now, before I get stuck or burnout.

Thank you ChuHong, for your apple just now... Its a sweet apple... Although its in return of borrowing my helmet, but give me great warm in time when I really pekcek... Thank you...